öskra.

How does it feel now that the sun has set and moon is rising before your eyelids?
As the wind blows nothing but her name into your thighs
How does it feel now that the air has thickened and your lungs are wetting blood
As you scream her name the loudest, you suffocate.

d.

you think i am …

you think i am so sick, i then remind you not to forget to drink your meds tonight. you have been keeping all under your pillow.

d.

Radiant Collapse – Falter

Falter [Artwork by Gothesque]

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At last, just in time for your doomsday party.

Wear your best pair of ears under a night

of all angst & anxiety,

to dance our pains away.

 

Credits:

Gothesque: Vocals

lester-witherspoon: Vocals, Lyrics, Instruments

Falter by Radiant Collapse

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When the sun begins to falter
And the shadows start to stretch
When you leave off of your labor
What will your slumber fetch?

When the party has grown tired
And the liquor slows in flow
When you look up at your fellows
What do their faces show?

When the seasons gain momentum
And the years slip through your hands
When you’re not what you expected
What’s left to understand?

My stomach’s empty
My head’s full
My heart quit beating
long ago

Where is this going?
Or is it gone?
Hey, are you crying
over me?

self quote [20.12.2012]

music is not about what you say you are, were, can do or have achieved. it’s what it sounds like every time it comes out of your senses.

 

elaborate dreams.

So last night I had dreams which involved Jason Godfrey (what the…) eating this ice-cream so passionately rather in an unusual way, and it suddenly gave me an impulsive craving for the same ice-cream so badly (uh, my dreams didn’t elaborate more on Jason Godfrey sadly. lol), but i couldn’t find it anywhere, and one of the shop assistants (suddenly a shop assistant randomly appeared before me) told me the ice cream was kept hidden in a dark castle of a blood vampiress up the hill (shop assistant never told me why) so i had to go all the way there alone to get it (for the sake of the ice-cream) and knocked and waited for a while until she opened her door for me, I could see her face but it was all smeared with fresh blood all over and she had fierce and evil yellow eyes. I then asked her about the ice-cream and she told me she wouldn’t let me in unless i had a plasma fruit with me (gosh, guess I never really moved on from The Sims 3, did i?) and so I went to the woods and looked for a plasma fruit, and somehow I got it a bit too easily and went back to knocking on her door and she finally let me in. she was surprisingly harmless and was strangely being a good host (she didn’t even try to bite. WHY??!)

i finally got the ice-cream and suddenly there were bright red lights shining through from above me as i grabbed it. i immediately sang my own epic rendition of “Indonesia Raya” (my country’s national anthem) out loud after that, and i just blacked out after (assuming myself dead), then I think that was the end of it.

i woke up in the real life with my stomach feeling so full.

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Credits go to:

1. Jason Godfrey posing topless with the models on Asia’s Next Top Model reality show on Star World I watched a few days ago.

Jason Godfrey

Jason Godfrey with one of the models

2. Endless searching of a dark Tumblr theme (which I ended up stumbling upon themes with ugly bloody vampires and such)

3. Last night’s bedtime conversation with husband about the video of Ron ‘Bumblefoot’ Thal of Guns N’ Roses playing my country’s national anthem “Indonesia Raya” perfectly when they had their concert here a while ago.

- Err, not sure where the ice-cream idea came from though (and yet it was the main subject in my dreams). LMAO.

d.

the shadow of a cat.

the more one tries to become,

me,

the more i smile and open my arms wide.

come here,

kitty, kitty.

d.

Distorted Minds.

Look at what tremored hands and massive headaches can do to my impulsive being. Tsk.